The Stalkers ramblings

Things weren’t always like this not all along.

We hadn’t always been so … apart.

We met two years ago now, at one of her gigs. She didn’t have a live backing band then. She played alone with just her guitar and backing track, even then she sounded amazing. The first time I saw her perform I knew we had to be friends.

The more gigs she played the more I went to. She’s such a lovely approachable person aware of her fans we became friends. She was impressed with my big camera. So every gig I would take photos and send them to her . She really appreciated this I could tell.

After a while we were friends I was allowed backstage before and after gigs. Sometimes I was even on guestlist.

As I got to know her better… She let me have a photo shoot with her. It was very special. Every time her eyes met mine through the lens..my heart skipped a beat.

Then we fell out. She found my collection of her things I had collected.. her lipsticks and stuff. She called me a freak. This hurt me a lot. I knew she didn’t mean it really. She was trying to fight the feelings that she had for me. Which is why I continue to watch her she hasn’t spoken to me (apart from telling me to leave her alone) for a whole year now. But I don’t care I still have faith her love for me. No one can stop the feelings that we have for each other they are too strong .

Things have got nasty.

I ring her just to hear her speak . Her voice. Her hello. I think she’s changed her number because of some nuisance caller or something. I know I ring her a lot and don’t speak but … I just need to hear her.

Love turns to hate.

I vent my anger/love via my fan artwork. I send her copies of all of them. I write to Amy but she returns my letters.. It mustn’t be her returning them … it must be her band making her do it because she loves me.

She’s threatened me saying she’ll phone the police but I know that’s not true she couldn’t do that to me. She loves me.

She’s my life. I live through her. She knows I do. And She relishes in it. I’ve been described as “ A Stalker” a completely ridiciously statement. I love her, you can’t help who you fall for right?

I like to follow her progress… That’s all I do.